Hey, it is my 22nd bday, and I have officially decided I can do whatever the hell I want so, I hereby declare that I will no longer make resolutions with everyone else at the end of the year, instead I will make them when I complete another year of my life, meaning, my birthday is my new year's day! At least it is a little more personalized!
So, my new year's resolutions as of now are:
1. Stop putting myself down, and believe in myself
2. Never ever ever ever EVER ask if I look fat. I don't want to know.
3. Don't ask "you think I shouldn't have eaten that?"
4. Do ChiKung every morning as soon as I wake up (unless of course it is thundering outside or if Auntie Flo is visiting)
5. Do kung fu basics every morning (following chikung when it fits, or by itself when chikung is not an option) and practice the forms at lease every other day. and stretch.
6. Find 30 minutes a day at least to go out for a walk or run (or in case it is raining skip some rope inside)
7. Join a Gym to learn new things and keep myself busy in case it is snowing 8(
8. Practice more of my singing (every other day to keep my vocal chords healthy)
9. Go back into drawing occasionally. It does me a lot of good.
10. Eat healthier. Dessert and red meat only once a week.
11. Get my degree in personal training. And USE it.
12. Audition, audition, audition. "Never retreat, never surrender"
13. Make Tim happy.
Thirteen is a lucky number, so I will keep it at that. Some of these things I have tried, but couldn't quite keep true to in the past. Maybe all I needed was a new beginning. And I am tired of thinking that my life is coming to an end. It is only the beginning. So I will face every single day as a challenge, a dare, and I will not fear failure for it is inevitable, Instead I shall embrace it as a gift that simply shows me that I have to try again.
As for my dreams, I will get there. I will audition and try until I succeed. I will accomplish my goals, follow my dreams and I will wish upon that star. It will only do me more good to believe in myself.
Once I doubted myself and I wound up with sorrow and self pity. Why? If I believe in myself it doesn't mean I am conceited, it just means I am confident. "Some people say that modesty a virtue....but in the theatre modesty can hurt you..."
If you got it, flaunt it. Let the whole world see what you're about!!
World, here I come.
