Immortality?

Seems I am rather influenced by things I read. I get aggravated and anxious and hyper. Reading Twilight made me thing a lot about aging and death, obviously because the vampires are immortal. And since it is only a book, there is no point for me to be grasping at the idea. 

SO, as I was laying in my bed, trying desperately to fall asleep, it came to me. How to be immortal, in a way at least, and it came through the form of Audrey Hepburn, who, unfortunately died some years ago, but is forever young and beautiful in Breakfast at Tiffany's. That's it! It hit me so unexpectedly that I almost didn't believe how easy it was, and how convenient. It is already my dream to be in movies, theatre, and such artistic things, this will make my will my strength to succeed even more unshakeable, more fierce. As if I needed more inspiration. Now I will be unstoppable, believe me, I will make it. I have to. There are few things in the world I want as much as this, and I can't wait to get started. I know that for now I am but an amateur, I've never really focused much on being good at one thing, I always tried to do everything and more, but no one can be good at everything. All I've had to do all along is focus. I never knew on what, and I've never considered giving somethings up, but for this, well, I can make some sacrifices.

And it also helps immensely that the love of my life, Tim, believes in me and is willing to go through this with me. Looks to me like since he strolled in my life, everything started falling into place, finally. I was broken, somehow, and deep down I knew it. Making wrong choices was sort of my favourite sport. But now, he is the voice of reason in my head. He is the right choice. I wouldn't have it any other way. Now I can see clearly, I have no reason to be afraid.

And if I cry a little, die a little, at least I'll know I've lived.